Most of my memories are like this too. It’s like I’m not me — like I’m sitting in the audience instead of actually living it. First person memories feel weird to me, but it’s probably because I completely shut down when I was around 12–13, and I’ve been trying to come back fully ever since.

Anyway, enough about me. This piece is amazing. It continued to punch me in the gut until I thought I owed it lunch money. Thank you for sharing parts of yourself and your experiences with us!