“Damage”

I don’t know if I’ll ever get past this

Photo by Sam Burriss on Unsplash

“The damage is done”
The war I was fighting
Is gone
All I see is destruction
And a pile sky high of casualties
The main one
Being my peace
Just…leave

The damage
Is irreparable
We used to be inseparable
Or at least — that’s what I told myself

It’s done
It was inevitable
I mean, history repeats itself
Picking pieces of my heart off the floor
Yet again
I don’t even know how many times it’s been
(Anymore)

“The damage is done”
Your silence
Ripped through me
Like a machine gun

‘Sorry’ is just a bandaid on a bullet wound
When I really need stitches
Words won’t fix it
The bridge is —
Burning
And I froze up
Just watching it
I don’t know
If all the water in the world
Could put it out
Ativan got me moving slow
3 doses in
And my mind says I want more
I said I wouldn’t go down this road…